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Taking chances on a midsummers eve.
I can only see what my mind lets me dream.
I am an unending plain of true desire and passion.
This is something that I reign, but try to show to you.
I am only so much a man as life allows me to be.
Still I can laugh at the days of old and revel in the times of new.
I trust my intuition enough to bring me here right now.
I hope my intuition has led me true; because I am here now.
I sit,
or rather
I lay here
in silent
contemplation.
“How could it be
like this?”
“It is the way;
the way of the world”,
he says to me.
I just dont feel;
I just dont feel
right.
In truth I just feel
wrong.
I continue though.
It is all I can do.
I just want
to make it
out alive.
–JB
I saw your face in a new light today.
I looked into a mirror I did not know of.
A glimpse of former verity is enough.
Deep down who are you? Brief is your view.
Is chasing rabbits a task for the foolhardy?
Is looking at the sky in wonderment childish?
I grow beyond my roots to touch my wonder.
Life is for merriment, intelligence, and love;
To reach for the sky and wind up lost in the clouds.
Why is the stigma of overly sexualized experiences so unfantastically true? What is the deal with night and day social interactions being incredulously opposite? Why is it that age to some is defining while others revel in the unripened state of youth and seem to receive inordinate amount of encouragement and praise? If knowledge is the only thing that truly separates me from an animal why does it seem that the slow closed mind develops a social aptitude that is false and weak but seems to hold power over its surroundings? Is there still so much wild in you and I? Are we not that far away from our pre-human selves? I can’t walk around this place without being objected to some obligatory form of vulgarity on my senses or an intrusive disruption of my passive mind. Stop trying to sell me, stop trying to persuade me! Stop invading my life with your ineffectual and hollow form of association. It seems today that the world sells itself short for a bright light, some sort of distraction. Focusing on nothing is centering and nurturing but without meditation and understanding focusing on nothing is numbing. We all are comfortably numb, you can’t feel me right next to you. Stop this carousel Sir, I am going to have to get off. Stop.
Sit back and relax. I’m here to take care of you for now.
I can sense the stress but I’m here to alleviate your worries.
We will dance into September remembering the summer as we go.
Time is fleeting and my life is bleeding out for this, dont deny me.
I try to focus on the present but my mind wanders to future and past.
I am only a caterpillar staring up at all the butterflies, be my cocoon.
I will be your healer, lets build a whole new life. Let’s strive for love.
If we only make it half way I’m 50 percent closer than now.
Remember the times we shared, sit in this moment, we are one.
Lets make this night last forever. I have no need for reality here.
So baby I am pleading you,“Come run away with me”, come baby please.
What do you need right now? If there was one thing that you could have right now what would it be? Something of monetary value, a car, a house, a boat? Maybe something of personal value, a family member back from death, a significant other, a wounded friendship healed? Or is it something of collective value, a solution for the oil spill, maybe your favorite team wins the championship, or peace in the Middle East, yo! What ever you might need, think about it, visualize yourself having it. What would be different about you if you had this thing? How would your daily life change? Would it affect your relationships with people for the better or worse? After this one thing would you still be in “need” of something else?
Most people alive have something in their life that they aren’t quite satisfied with, or one thing that they must have so they can break through to their “next stage”. My question is what is stopping you from preogressing forward? I can’t understand why everyone has these things they want or need and they just sit back and want them. Go grab it right now, what is stopping you? What ever is stopping you drop that. If you can’t drop what is stopping you then maybe you don’t really need that thing you are wanting. If you can drop it then drop it. Dont be afraid to take chance, to risk things to make positive change in you life.
Imagine a place inside you mind, your happy place. You have everything in you life that makes your world perfect for you. You are sitting in a room with everything you need in your life. What do you do first?
So lets pretend your are President of America right now. Let’s pretend you could just wake up and control our Nation (even though the Presidency was not supposed to have this power, but does). What would you do first?
If I was President I would first spend about a month reading and questioning a lot of things that are ‘mysteries’ still. I would learn about the Kennedy Assassination, 
Area 51, the Nations connection to Free Masonry, read any and all Thomas Jefferson material saved, listen to the theory of the NWO, find out about all our spending and the purpose of all this money being created. I would immediately take away the income tax and replace it with a flat tax somewhere around 10% federal and 10% state. I would cut all programs that are funded by this extreme taxing. People would be required to do community service depending on how much money you make or pay an extra tax to avoid it. I would immediately pull 90% of our troops out of any over seas base and cut military spending to a point where we can defend our Nation and that’s it. Every person that enters the military or Government is required to serve in the Peace Corps.(yeah I jacked that from MURS, so what it’s good) I would force schools to rearrange their spending to allow cheaper classes, more teacher pay and less Sports funding. These are just a few samples of things that would be important to me to start doing. What’s important to you?
I am not a lawyer or politician so I cant say I have the answers or any guaranteed solutions but I can see some things that are obvioulsy wrong that need changing. I may see the Country in a differnt light than you, but don’t take our political differences as negative. We all have a desire to chase life liberty and the pursuit of happiness. I belive that there is a way we can all achieve this. Sittying idly by and not talking about this or asking questions will only procure more division and rivalry instead of unity and determination. So I ask, what would you change with our Nation? What would you leave the way it is? What can you do about these things today, here and now? Probably more than you think; ask questions, have political debates, don’t belive your idiot box, think about things throughly and use you best judgment and morality to dictate your life.
Am I in love or is this just addiction?
Am I above sorts of self-infliction?
People and places all similar faces.
Is there a drawing point on this canvas?
Is there beyond reckless abandon?
Nighttime compromises, this is what life is?
How do I hold on to truth?
I cannot grow beyond my roots.
Further becomes forever?
What is there left for me to do?
Shapes exist for only me to prove.
Destination unknown?
Tributary commonplace of people,
Oh how we mount our steeple.
Can I meld, should I tell?
Unlimited signs and ample situations,
This is mine, my interpretation.
Tell me anything.
I heard heaven sing.
What we do when were alone.
All by yourself? Why not get naked. Or maybe go out and sit in a park. Call over the friends and have a party. Cook some good food, just for you the way you like it. Go for a walk, listen to your favorite song on 11! throughout the house. Maybe it’s nap time. Maybe just sit and watch TV. Whatever you do though remember you are all alone.
It can bring out fears and uncertianties, allow peace and tranquility, consume you to the point of hysteria or realize you inner desires. Being alone can allow you to center in on things or spiral out of your mind in search of contact. What you choose to do with yourself when your alone is yours and only yours.
So what are you gonna do next time your all alone?
On of my favorite solitude songs
So hamsters run the wheel and I have the need to feel. I am blessed and cursed with a life of American privilege. I must continue to agree with the masses to stay below the mans passes. I can’t always show enough to spread my life through there and here. I feel as if some of these thoughts are queer to the average. Yet without slightly irregulars what anticipation is there for the next set. I show my face as a product of TV and Internet fads and captions. When you force yourself to resolve to speak only truth you seem to lose your tongue. So sign it out to me baby because if it is true it must be known. I’ve tried and tried to get off this wheel but just cant seem to slow down enough to jump out. To make the best of the situation I smile a drudge through the norms. I cant always put on my facade but I do have a way to avoid you when I don’t. I run the race, I tire from the run, I rest to restore and go again. How long will this cycle continue? How can I wear this facade of simple mindedness and be myself? I am only leasing this life so I guess all these things will continue until the mortgage is paid off!
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